Current mood:

satisfied

may 18
i made the phonecalls and sent in the paperwork today to secure our wedding spot and the officiate for may 18th in savannah.

i can't believe that we've been engaged now for a year and 5 months and i just couldn't bring myself to decide what i wanted, make it solid, and go through with it. maybe i was scared of losing a piece of my youth or something? that is so ridiculous. with or without the title of marriage, we have bought a house together and we are unbelievably in love. we've been together now for 5 years come june. what in the world could i possibly be scared of other than not having him next to me to help me with everything for the rest of my life?

so, we'll be in savannah for 4 days and then san fransisco for 5 days. our immediate family will be there and it will be small and not too much hype, but rememberable. i wish i hadn't panicked about this for the last year and a half and just buckled down to do it. it's the right time, though. i've learned so much about myself and our relationship in that year and a half that has made me so certain of what i'm doing. i'm not scared anymore or hesitant about being MARRIED. married. it still sounds so weird, but once the weirdness goes away it'll be just how it is now only we'll have a piece of paper.